Needed Financial Help

I 28 was living the high life as they say and hadn't care in the world. Married to a rich man who didn't want children at that time. But it was all a facade, my husband 34 a real self-made man, who while everything went his way was on top of the world he had made. Money meant nothing to him, spent it like it was endless. But it was all based on his actions. He was able to patch cracks when they appeared, his entire wealth was built on quicksand. Only his actions kept the whole structure from sinking out of sight. Then he had an accident, being risky in his business actions is one thing, being risky in a car is another. While enjoying himself on a mountain road, speeding way to fast to react to a sudden problem, a large loose rock slipped down the slope and landed in the middle of the narrow road. Too late to miss it he hit front on the car was outweighed by several tons. So, I became a widow and the wealth I thought I'd for life vanished quicker than I had ever thought it could. loans were called straight, all assets sold off. Everything even my clothes were being taken, my only hope was my cousin 30 also a self-made man. No where near what my husband supposed to have worth when alive. But his wealth was real and built on a solid base, not numbers on a screen that disappear when the screen is turned off. I was left with no money no home just a small suitcase with a change of clothes. That had come from a charity, no phone and they even took my engagement and wedding rings. I walked across the city to my cousin's home. He had heard of my husband's death and the frenzy in recovering the money he owed. He took me in, his apartment was modest, but comfortable. He didn't waste money on showing off, my late husband's specialty. My cousin could never be called a ladies' man, he concentrated on his work, never dated much at all. My work prospects weren't great no skills other than my good looks; the reason my husband married me. But I was used model as they say, little chance of finding another man like my husband. But my cousin had already decided before my husband's death he would try and start a family of his own. It wasn't going well at the time of my arrival, and I didn't know he was looking to start a family at that time. As we caught up on our lives since last meeting 4 years earlier at my wedding. He asked why I'd no children; I told my husband wasn't ready for any children yet. He then asked did I want to be a mother, I said I did but it would have to wait till I recovered my future and found another man. My cousin isn't backward in asking for what he wants, just not good in small talk with women he has just met. I on the other side was a woman he had known all my life, and he was very comfortable talking with me. He wasn't a virgin he'd used his position overtime to get sex. But not with any he what the breed with, knowing both our family's history. He thought he could use me to start his family, that would help me get back on feet as they say and give him the children he wanted. He could easily support my previous lifestyle to a point, that point was me having children. So, he straight asked me to have his children, no trying to seduce me or wait till I was settled in. Told to think it over not answer straight away, I was restless that night thinking it over. It would be simple to change my surname back to my maiden name and then I could pass myself off as his wife. I decided it was the best chance to improve my future, easier than starting a job and then looking for another husband. So, I agreed and started sleeping with him there and then, but he decided I should've future security, so we travel aboard using my married passport to marry while aboard. Change my surname back to my maiden name on getting back home. We'd been very active trying to start our family and two months after our marriage I was confirmed as pregnant, all test showed a healthy baby, now years later we're still married and have three children. My whole life focus is on my children and cousin/husband, take no precautions will have more children as long as I'm able too. My life before my first husband's death has totally flipped to the opposite and I'm very happy that it has.