Surrogacy request from Mom

I grew up in a wealthy family, however, my mom was a trophy wife for my rich dad.
I always felt weird about their age gap but they were happy and i never really dug in any more than I was told.

Being rich as a family, I was sent to a boarding school and barely saw my parents from age 9 to the time i graduated from high school. We were not a super close family due to their beliefs in the schooling systems etc.

I was the only child so when i came back home from high school, I felt like a stranger in an almost empty house. I couldnt wait to start college to get rid of the awkwardness.

Dad was always busy and never showed any affection at all, mom tried by making me dinner, watching shows with me and taking interests in my hobbies etc.

One day, I was hanging out with mom and curiously asked her how she met my dad.

Mom "do you want the truth or what i tell everyone else?"
Me confused "well, the truth i guess which would answer my other question as well"
Mom "our other question about why i would have different story?"
Me "yeah, i guess"
Mom "well, my dad was your dad's friend, my dad taught your dad a lot about business and when he was on his death bead he asked your dad to make sure i was taken care of"
Me "im sorry to hear that, how old......"
Mom *cutting me off* "I was 12 when he died"
Me "oh wow so you have known dad since you were 12?"
Mom "no, not exactly, your dad was part of my life since I was probably 8 or 9 years old"
Me "wow"
Mom "when your dad first started learning the ropes, he would often visit the house and was probably at a few of my birthday parties"
Me "thats gotta be awkward, how old was he?"
Mom "he was 19 turning 20"
Me "so then, how did you guys become a couple?"
Mom "well, i didnt really have a choice, i didnt have any family after my dad passed away and he was the only man ever in my life"
Me "so ....like did ........ummmm"
Mom "haha no, silly, we didnt do anything until .....well....it was still a bad thing but it was more me than him"
Me "what do you mean?"
Mom "well, I was 14 when i decided to try and seduce him because I was in love with him"
Mom "and a year later I had you"
Me "i knew you had me super young, didnt know you were 15"
Mom "well, remember our birthdays are only 12 days apart so technically I was 16 when I had you"
Me "still, thats awfully early, how come you guys......"
Mom "To be fair, I probably stopped or destroyed a few of his relationships by being part of his life so it was only fair that I took care of him sexually"
Me "omg mom, thats not what I meant to ask"
Mom "o sorry, what did you want to ask?"
Me "I was asking about having brother or a sister"
Mom "well, your dad thought that I shouldnt be putting my life on pause because of kids, so he decided to let me spent a few years with you and once you were able to you would go to school and so would i, which allowed me to get my doctorate, but......"
Me "but what?"
Mom "nothing, nevermind"
Me "mom this is the most we have ever really talked, please"
Mom "well.....I wanted more kids"
Me "and dad doesnt?"
Mom "he does but he cant due to his medical condition, he doesnt want to pass that on"
Me "I understand"

I was going to change the topic to something else but mom cut me off and said something I was not expecting.

Mom "we have discussed surrogacy options......"

I was speechless and just shocked.

Mom "but, you know your dad, he is very picky......genes, etc"

Still at a loss of words i just look at mom and cant think of what to say.

Mom "sorry if this is uncomfortable"
Me "no, its just not something I was expecting you to say, like ......how much have you guys discussed this, and is this still........."

Mom "well, i want a child that I can watch grow and he also regrets sending you to school"

Me "thats nice i guess"
Mom "not trying to replace you ofcourse but i feel like i need that, and as far if this is still something we want, yes, we watch interviews of donors once or twice weekly but ......."

Me "no one fits the criteria?"
Mom "yeah, i dont want just someone who is rich and powerful, i also want him to a nice person, but to your dad its just data with no emotion"
Me "I wish i could help"
Mom just gave me a strange long look but didnt say anything else and we eventually started talking about something else.

A few days go by and my mom made me dinner, it was just her and I in the house again. After the dinner she asked if she could talk to me about something very important to her.

Mom "Alex, I would love to talk to you about something"
Me "sure mom"
Mom "remember the other day, the surrogacy.......thing?"
Me "yes, what happened?"
Mom "well, I ..........had an idea, from our conversation, that I ran by our dad.....and he was surprisingly ...........ok with it......."
Me "thats great......seems like there is a catch"
Mom "well.......remember what you said when we ended that discussion?"
Me "hmm....no, what did i say?"
Mom "you said you wish you could help"
Me "of course, how can I help?"
Mom "well, your dad is all about good genes and blah blah blah"
Me "yes, i remember you told me"
Mom "and I want a good person"
Me "yes........?"
Mom "well, i asked your dad if he would consider this and ........he wasnt a fan of it at first but......."
Me "mom, just tell me, you are making me nervous"
Mom "well, I convinced him that you could be a great donor"

I was in shock again, my brain was fried hearing my mom say those words and that dad agreed.

Mom "I know i just gave you a huge thing but you asked if you could help"
Me "i didnt mean it......this way"
Mom "its all clinical, you would donate to the doctor and......."
Me "stop.......please"

I walked away, not knowing how to feel about this conversation.
I stayed out of the house trying to avoid discussing this again with mom and only came home when i knew dad was also there to avoid the whole topic. A few days later at dinner table with mom, dad and the chef,

Dad "hey Alex, I would like for you to make an appt with Dr Dolhar to get everything checked out"
Me "everything checked out?"
Dad "yeah to make sure you are a good surrogate"
Shocked and gasped at his statement.
Me "what???"
Dad "you talked to Cindy already, we need to more forward with this"
Me "I didnt ......agree"
Dad "well, you can get tested and then decide"
I look at mom and she doesnt say anything but had a pleading face.

Later on as we are leaving the table, my mom told me the doctor is free in the morning and she would love to go with me and then held my hand and said "please, Alex, please do this for me"

So i agree to get tested. We met the doctor in the morning and he called later in the evening to give me the results stating I am a good donor.

I am in my room, contemplating this and imagining having a brother or a sister....
Im imagining visiting home while mom is pregnant and how weird that would be.
Suddenly, i felt a twitch in my dick as I was thinking of my mom pregnant. Then my brain took a turn that I had never done before and I thought of my mom pregnant with MY child. I started getting hard, thinking of me being the reason my mom is pregnant.
Eventually i got so horny that I had to jump on my computer and find some porn to masturbate to.

I went down the rabbit hole of porn and landed on a milfs video page and as soon as I saw a mom and son fucking I couldnt stop erupting and coming all over the place. I cleaned up but couldnt rid of the thought of being the cause for my moms pregnancy, and it was keeping me horny. I stayed on the computer and started reading stories, incest stories, specifically about moms and step moms. I couldnt help myself and probably spent 6-8 hours in my room just reading stories after stories and watching videos after videos of mom and son situations.

My parents went away for the weekend for some company event, so monday morning my mom asked me if the doctor had reached out. I told them both that yes and he said I was a good match. My dad said thank you for making he happy and left for work.

Mom "im sorry, i hope you are not mad at me"
Me "no, its ok mom"
Mom "so, how do you feel? would you be ok doing this for us? for me really"
Me "yes, but I do have one condition"
Mom "yes, Alex, anything, just say the word"
Me "humph, well.....I am ok with it, just not the way......the process"
Mom "not sure what you mean"
Me "I dont want to,.......at the doctor..."
Mom "honey, the doctors are confidential and wont share anything with anyone"
Me "no, its not that, I dont want......that process......for this"
Mom "i think i understand........you dont feel comfortable them collecting the......."
Me "yeah i guess so"
Mom "If you want we can find another facility"
Me "no, the process would be the same"
Mom "yeah, im confused"
Me "mom, how bad do you want this?"
Mom "more than anything else in the world"
Me "are you willing.......to do........whatever......"
Mom *cuts me off* "yes, whatever it takes"
Me "ok, il do it, but I dont want to be a surrogate"
Mom "huh, then how would do it?"

I didnt respond, just kept eye contact. Took a few second, which felt like minutes for mom to catch my drift.

Mom "oh my god, Alex"
I kept silent.....
Mom "i cant believe this....please tell me im wrong Alex"
Me "mom, its my sperm, i should have a say in it and I rather do it myself, than some doctor"
Mom "Alex"
Me "well if you want it as badly as you said you did, this is my condition"
Mom "and what about dad?" and caught herself "nevermind"
Me "we can still tell him that we did it surrogate way"
Mom "no!"
Me "you know you are ok with it, its my sperm, going........what difference does it make to dad how........."
Mom "Alex, you are talking about getting me pregnant"
Me "so are you, only difference is how, its going to be my child in your belly isnt it?"
Mom didnt say anything just sat there looking at me.
Me "look mom, its your wish, your child, your body that this child will grow and come out of, its my sperm, which makes it my child too and if thats the case, the only way ill do it is if i can deliver my sperm...........direct"
Mom "you are talking about sleeping with me?"
Me "no, doesnt have to be romantic, just sex"
Mom "sex? just sex? with your mom?"
Me "yes, why not, you want my sperm, im willing to give it to you.....let do it"
Mom "and dad?"
I knew she was ok with this......now just have to convince her a little more.
Me "you decided how to handle him and Ill follow your lead, if you wanna tell him it was through that way ill follow your lead"
Mom sat there pondering for a few minutes.
Mom "you can not tell him or anyone else, it would have to stay with us, and us only"
Me "done"
Mom "it would destroy our family, our legacy, everything if anyone ever found out"
Me "im not gonna say anything"
Mom "ok,.....if thats the only way you will do this......"
Me "yup, my condition is this"
Mom "ok, deal, lets get it over with"
I tried to go in for a kiss and she turned her cheek. We walked to the bedroom and she laid down on the bed at the edge of it. She was still for a moment and then lowered her pants to her thighs and then lifted her legs in the air. I tried to remove the pants and she stopped me.
Mom "you dont need to remove them to .......do....the thing"
Me "umm ok, it would make it easier.....mom"
Mom "its ok, just do your thing"
I took my pants off and looking at her butt and pussy I started rubbing myself to get hard. I reached down and touched her pussy and he she quickly turned to see, put her legs down and just looked at me.
Mom "its not romantic or antyhing, its just you .......your sperm inside, thats it, lets not do anything stupid or crazy ok, just do your thing and thats it"
With that said she went back to the orginal position.
I brought my cock closer to her pussy and started entering slowly, I havent been with a women ever, so I didnt last very long once i was fully inside her. I unloaded my balls in to her pussy, pump after pump after pump for several minutes i emptied my jizz in to my moms pussy. My cock was finally empty and slipped out of her.
Mom "ok, you can leave now, close the door, i need to stay like this to ensure....."

I left the room.a